Every Wednesday morning, Don Noordyk and I meet in the Worship Center for a time of prayer and song. I was there a little early today and reading in the book of John. It was the part in the garden found in chapter 18 when Judas kisses Him in the final act of betrayal. Scripture says that "Judas, his betrayer, also knew the place because Jesus and his disciples were there often."
That struck me. It says that Judas knew the place where Jesus was. Judas must have known the importance of this place to Jesus and the disciples. Think about it, this was the place where Jesus went to spend the most agonizing moments of vulnerability in his life. We talk of God being a "hiding place" for us in our moments of torment. This Garden was the place that Jesus went to, to be alone with and find refuge in his Father. And Judas knew this place of safety and intimacy. Not only that, but this is where Judas gave one final kiss to his companion of three years. The betrayal amidst the initimacy.
I got to thinking about where I go for vulnerability and intimacy. I am talking about that place in my heart that when open leaves me an open book for all to read and criticize. How often has someone known this place in my life and entered in only to carry out their own agenda. Completely forgetting that they are part of the people I have let in to my life. It is no wonder that we hesitate to open ourselves up. Whether it is to ask for help, to share joy, whatever...we cannot allow ourselves to be closed off. We must not build fences around those "gardens" of intimacy in our life, and just refuse to let people in.
Judas knew where Jesus would be that night. It was a place that they had been to together before. Judas walked all over what that place meant to Jesus. It is good to know that He knows how I feel when people who are close to me, walk all over my heart. Know what I mean?